What a wild, crazy, fast-paced life I lead. It seems that I never have any down time anymore. Being a mom, a wife, a nurse, a friend, a personal therapist (unpaid might I add) and a doting aunt ( I got a new baby niece a couple weeks ago, and my nephew turned one) keeps you busy constantly. I try so hard to squeeze it all in and if it don't fit then I pull time away from myself.
Its crazy really, I haven't sit down and read a book in months, I don't sleep but a few hours then I have to get up for some reason or another, I don't do me-time.
Maybe thats how I got derailed. Off track.
Busted
Why, oh why, are old habits sooo hard to break and new ones sooo hard to learn????
Its just too easy. I don't even have to think, or stress, I just do it. Its second nature.
Why can't I be that way about the good things, like working out, like dieting, like drinking water, like being healthy, and conscious of what goes into my mouth?
I guess if I knew the answer to that I wouldn't be in this predicament in the first place.
It is so easy to slip back into those old habits. I have lost 20lbs now but the last few days have not been good ones for me. I am slacking big time. I am calling myself out on it, I have been making very poor choices.
I don't really know what started it all. I was going to the gym, I was eating what I should and then BAM! I was right back doing the same things that led me to this point.
I found myself making excuses for my behavior;
"I deserve to eat _______, I had a rough day"
" I am too tired to cook tonight, I will just grab something on way in".
" I will go to the gym tomorrow"
I wish I could pinpoint what happened but I can't.
My life has been superbusy lately, with work, and family, and home schooling my son, maybe I just stopped planning time for myself? Maybe I am not seeing the results quick enough?
I don't know but it has to stop, Now.
I have to get back on track. Recharge my batteries, and move forward.
Back to the gym tomorrow, back on protein shakes and lean cuisines, I have got to do this.
Here's to making healthy new habits stick----
~C~
